so 1st thing 1st, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!


ok this is where i freak out!!

its 2009. yay woohooo what ever, you get the whole idea...

the thing is, i just realize that im turning 20 this year. not that i didnt notice at all. i did, but in a different way. and apparently, NOW it seems that i have come to my senses and bcoz of that i finally see it, which is in a lot more different way then the 1st one....GOD am i making any sense? coz im just typing this, like a psycho girl who just realize she's turning 20 this year. T.T

most of people freak out bcoz their turning 30 and their not yet married. and im freaking out bcoz im turning 20 and im...im still me XD

coz u see, time flies as we know it and u know some people just don't really notice/appreciate those precious moment and by that i mean me myself as well.haha hey im being honest... we do things we know we shouldn't, aware or unaware of our own actions. but i guess that is just part of life and learning. by the time we get older ( am not refering to me, obviously~~ XP ) it'll strike us how reckless we are and how time are a lot more important then just a mega sale discount in the shopping mall or how cute that guy is. or maybe that just me >.> hmm...

what im trying to say here is, dont be afraid to do something u want to do while u still have the chances/time. even if there is smthg holding u back. if its bcoz of big matter like money then, go get a job!!! haha just kidding. but if something minor like, ur shy or u scared people gonna make fun of you, oh c'mon... u not gonna let other people u don't even know of, made u miss out on something cool or something that really catches ur heart and are willing to do for so long. isnt that just sad and a waste of time being sad??

being shy is definitely a big prob for anybody, even me especially when i started cosplaying, it was hard for me to even concentrate. my head just cant keep turning left and right. and yea there are time people GOING to make fun of cosplayer like us, BUT....but what the heck~ i put a lot of effort every time it comes to cosplay and i know im goin to have fun and u know what, i did. lots of time!!! and i enjoy every second of it. and never in my life im going to let every inch of my effort gone to waste. and the best thing, i make a lot of new friends along the way =)


so the whole turning 20 freak out thingy is just me, i just cant believe im 20 and no longer a teenager i guess??? this does feel awkward coz honestly i still feel like a kid. i guess im too playful and not serious at some point. i dont even know how to cook XP

so, the crazy things i miss out in 2008 and wish to learn and do this year...are :

• cooking!!!!!! i hate knife so...yea im starting slow with that. bare with me here...
  
• paintball!!!!!!!! XD
  
• go kart...anybody???
• get on a plane, i wanna go somewhere.the last time i went on a plane was what...form 1??? T.T
• master 'sketch up'. i have to.
• learn more on using photoshop.
  
• do more DIY stuff /house deco
  
• explore more on creativity, be daring in design...
• read more...plz...im begging myself. i just hate reading. exceptional for twilight and harry potter XP hehe
  
• learn more on photography, if i have the chance
• LOSE WEIGHT PLEASE~~~~~~~~~ DDD:
  
• steal an slr XD haha
• go to a stranger and talk like a maniac hahaha just kidding

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1. Amy on 06 January 2009 23:27

   cooking!! huahuahua...ok better do..owh tedah get on a plane..owh tedah...merinsak ali jak bunyi...kekeke

    
2. a z i e on 07 January 2009 01:02

   merinsak
   sedeh
   hampa
   kecewa
   mcm2 eh
   T.T
   
   haha